Un-pregnant

It's weird not being pregnant when you were yesterday and have no baby to show for it. Miscarriages are an awful experience. Sure, God was probably saving us and our little baby from a life of disabilities and pain, but it really is difficult to accept. I'm glad that we were only as far along as we were. Everyday of pregnancy bonds you more with the little baby inside. Also, from a physical aspect I don't know how I could handle a larger miscarriage. I pray that none of you reading this ever has to share this experience, but I am glad that I had certain tools to deal with this that I did. I won't share the gorey details here, but it is a crazy thing that no one should do alone or unprepared. I thought I was crazy for reading Lamaze books at 10 weeks, but when the contractions started and I was at home without medication, I was darn glad I knew how to relax and breathe through them and that I knew what to expect along the way. OK, enough about this. The next post should be happier. I really do like Oregon.